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Monday, April 30, 2007
Went to watch The Inconvenient Truth with almost the whole cohort of Sec threes with about 2/3 of the teachers. Oh my. it rocks. go buy/borrow the VCD. It's about global warming... and it's based on Al. Gore ( idon't know how to spell his name..ummm.ehem)'s talk on Global Warming and etc. He's a really good speaker, good analogies and good visual aids. rocks. haha. Oh. And it's really a pity that he lost George Bush by 1%(!!!) during the elections for US Presidency in 2000. GAH. Sucks. haha.
Oh... and we've got some surprising good news today. THE HCL HOD HAVE APPEALED FOR CLDDS TO GO INTO FINALS! PREPARE FOR MGS CLDDS IN THE DRAMA FINALS! oh man. i can't describe my feelings about it. And, we're not going to lose our drama teacher. He's going to be back. we're going to go against that CLDDS teacher-in-charge! >.<
oh and yes... There's this song that was played almost everywhere i went these few days. it's stuck in my head now -_- it's not exactly nice. but it keeps repeating the same tune and lyrics -_-. well well..
Sunday, April 29, 2007
I cannot believe i did this but i did it. I woke up at 0620hrs on a sunday morning just to finish some project work stuff and some church stuff. I've never woken up on Sunday mornings to finish up my work before... not that i remember of any instances... but..oh well, haha. I'm glad i did.
Kendra feels like spending alot of money. I saw nice shoes, bags, caps (i don't know why i'm so fascinated by caps) and clothes and some accessories. does anybody want to sponsor me? :D haha.
Sponsoring reminds me of somebody telling me that there's this girl in school who has a boyfriend who gave her $100 to take a cab -_-" Singapore isn't that big to take a $100 worth cab can! And the thing is,he gives her alot of money to buy other stuff too. OH! and i heard he's a AC Barker boy too (barker boys suck.) well, THAT EXPLAINS IT. hahaha.
If i can really find somebody who can sponsor me... $100 for a cab. hahahahahaha. i can probably get some money from that person to go shopping. hahahahahah. nah. jk. I'd probably run away from that person. Who knows what that person wants from you? :S
Well, Kendra's planning to save money. Eat less... save money. Yep. I shall save till i'm satisfied and i can go shop all i want. haha.
19:55
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
I think i'm like si hui. a dominant volcano. The more i try to tolerate, the more i'm going to erupt.
I don't know how it sounds when volcano erupts. boommm. ?
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Kendra has been disgustingly self centred nowadays. She has been so tired that she tears everynight before she sleeps... which in turn makes her even more tired the next day -_- She has been wondering why isit that she's never satisfied with anything. She feels like she's got 2 and more voices within her that makes her crazy. She's scared. She's tired. She's pissed. She wonders why isit that people do not do what they are supposed to do. She wonders if she's going to end up like those people who leave one day, then "get saved" again. She wonders if this is just a routine.
Kendra has been disgustingly self-centred. She feels like she's already fallen off the track. But is there anybody there to pick her? ha. maybe not a human being.
she's not used to smiling anymore. it feels un-natural. oh gosh.
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Friday, April 27, 2007 "and we're not going for finals. why? no explaination, no nothing. it sucks when you've got an irrinoying teacher-in-charge. "SO WE'LL GO FOR FINALS." and what happened?
we're out of competition, we've got no coach all thanks to teo lili, who didn't dare attend the meeting today." - extracted from Mabel's blog.
Well, yeah. i forgot to add in the previous post, CLDDS got into finals. Believe it or not. FINALS!!! WE GOT SILVER FOR SYF!! MY SCHOOL! It's really by God's grace that we're able to get in.
Yeah. but... you can read the above. My teacher just did something really nice that upset our drama teacher and now, WE'RE GOING TO CHANGE TEACHER.
WOW. this is like the... 3rd teacher we've had? How many more do we have to change huh?
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yep. Time for real updates.
Life's been pretty sucky. (i'm probably the one who's sucking more than life) but today was alright. Except that Val Foo and Cheryl kept on teasing me for no reason... they're getting more and more addicted to it... "don't know why..kendra's just so tease-able! haha" thanks ah. What a compliment.
There's been a primary 5 immature girl called Shu Min who has been pestering me since the start of school for no reason. I've been pretty avoidant but she even stalked me to my class...... Umm, well, my class is the first class next to the canteen. BUT, she didn't know! until she stalked me -_-" wow. how fun right. getting stalked by some primary 5 kid. Goodness, i almost got so angry today that i wanted to pour the burning cup of greentea on her. But nah, i shan't. It would show how immature i was. haha. And to think of it, it's pretty immature.
I crossed the overhead bridge to Mobile to get something to eat when i saw Dorita. (Yes, Doreen's sister. Oh. Darryl's and David's too haha) I accompanied her to wait for her dad for about an hour plus... until i finally persuaded her to call her dad to ask where he is. He was waiting for her in school. Oh well... haha. But it was really nice talking to her. She really is more mature than kids her age. so cool. haha.
I got back my Chemistry test. I PASSED. phew!!! Val, cheryl and i were really really worried about our results. But in the end, cheryl and i got the same marks which was one mark lower than Val. Haha. We've got A anyway. hahaha.
Alright. That's all.
I think this post sounded really weird. sorry about it huh.
20:29
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This scene from the movie, My Best Friend's Wedding, still makes my heart break. This show is about the girl (acted by Julia Roberts) having a guy best friend (i can't remember his name. but he's the one in this video) whom she actually really love. However, she hadn't told him his feelings... and he finally broke the news to her that he was getting married. (Therefore the title, My Best Friend's Wedding) She tried all ways to separate him and his fiance but she couldn't. This scene is when they finally have time to be alone since the start of the Wedding preparations. You can see how sad her eyes are :( her "loved one" is going to get married to some other woman whom she doesn't even know...
oh well. haha. I'm getting alittle addicted to youtube now...
Monday, April 23, 2007
i got this from val's blog. haha.
1. Who do you hate? nobody i guess
2. What do you hate? ...
3. Who's your best friend?
4. What's your first period class? umm.. Monday: Chapel, Tuesday: Physics, Wednesday: Chemistry, Thursday: (can't remember), Friday: Mathematics
5. Do you appreciate good grammar? YES
6. Are you fluent in any languages other than English? uh... Chinese. i guess. i only know these 2 languages haha
7. Do you own any band shirts? Nope.
8. What's the last book you read? Uhh. "Meant to be"
9. Have you ever intentionally hurt someone (physically or emotionally)? Many times... last time.
10. Photography or drawing? photography
11. What color is the shirt you wear to bed? depends...
12. What lyric can you relate to right now?
13. City or country? i don't mind any...
14. What magazines are you subscribed to? None
15. Have you ever dyed your hair? Nope
16. What's your favorite month? November. :P haha
17. What color are your eyes? Black/brown ?
18. What's the last movie you saw in the theater? uhh.. good question. Oh. Miss Potter. I think.
19. If you're listening to music, what song are you listening to? 一下下-同恩
20. Where would you most like to travel to? London. London. LONDON!
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During Sunday school yesterday, we learnt about forgiving of sins. The fact that it is possible to forgive, with the Love of God, no matter how difficult it seems to do so. During Sermon yesterday, we learnt about loving our enemies. To be different from the rest of the world and not just love those who are lovable, but the "unlovable" (quoted cause i think that everybody is lovable in one way or another). Today, during Chapel service, we learnt about being charitable. And it kind of linked both forgiving and loving enemies together in one sermon. Well, it's kind of cool how God works. hahaha. (using cool here sounds funny) He kind of summed up those two together for me today and helped me understand both of them even more. "Greet your 'enemies' with a smile." "smile is an act of love" well, i shall give you some smiles here. :D :D :) :)
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Saturday, April 21, 2007 what does kendra do when she's not in her best moods and feels tired?
she stuffs yoghurt into her stomach until she feels like puking and fat.
doubts doubts and more doubts. trustworthy? haha. win me over.
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
Your Travel Personality Is: The Sophisticate
You're well educated and cultured, and the places you travel to reflect that. You appreciate the best art, food, architecture, and local flavor. A true traveler, you are destined to be multi-lingual and very worldly.
I guess i really have to apologise about the previous post. I'm another hypocrite isn't it? Saying to love my neighbours but i'm their letting hatred build up. I'm sorry for spoiling some of your images of "Christians", but i hope that you'd realise that Christians are humans too and that they do make mistakes like normal people
Anyway, Kendra feels accomplished! She walked all the way from MGS to Adams Road food centre. Let's see. how far is that? Well, how did she do it?
1. 50g of disappointment 2. 10g of depression 3. 30g of tiredness due to lack of sleep 4. 10g of loneliness 5. 10g of confusion
Now, that's what made her walk so far. Not very far? Oh well, nevermind. At least i saved $0.35 from not taking a bus to the bus stop there. :)
18:52
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
disgusting.
You seemed sweet and nice last time... I thought you were the nicest person whom i've ever known. Wow nice. wow sweet. wow wow. I cannot stand the way you're treating me now. You're disgustingly fake. I cannot stand it... urgghhh~~~ you still seem nice. WOW SO NICE. but only to others. I'm not dumb. really. not to the point that i can't sense anything. Right. maybe it's just me. i'm just "assuming" things since i haven't really asked you. but. HA HA HA. you're supposed to be nice isn't it? Will you even tell the truth?
And YOU. I don't really know what is wrong with me or you or whatever.. maybe it's just what's happening. but i'm disgusted by the way YOU are treating me too. Did i do anything wrong? Can you please tell me what i have done wrong? I hate to feel this way. it sucks.
Argh. i'm disgusted by the ugliness of the both of you. i'm even disgusted by myself posting my unhappiness here.
I guess both of you will never know who you are. it's okay. You both are beautiful. Just not to me.
"me?" YES YOU.
16:31
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Monday, April 16, 2007 *thunders roar* *lightning strikes*
there was a major thunderstorm just now during CLDDS and I thank God that nobody that i heard of got struck by the lightning or something. the thunder was :S it sounded more than 5 times i believe...
And i was sitting with Mabel... telling her randomly that the world is about to end... All of a sudden, i felt a sense of fear. The world is going to end. I then thought of those whom i treasure very much. What if the building of my school collapse all of a sudden? I wouldn't even get a chance to tell them how much i treasure them or even love them. Like what mabel said, she haven't been a good Christian yet. She hasn't told her loved ones that she loves them... etc etc. Then i thought, "me too". I have never really told anybody that i love them before. Never really liked that word because people use it too often, that it doesn't seem true anymore. I never really used that word.
then i thought, will those people ever know that i really treasure them?
Then, another thought came into my mind. i was reminded of those who haven't received Christ yet. Have i been even trying to bring them to christ? Are we waiting for them to come to us? Shouldn't we be the ones approaching them to tell them about the Good News?
What if the World suddenly just collapse now? Regrets? regrets? More regrets?
16:30
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
It's not working -_-
I thought i could pyscho myself to not "feel fat" by going jogging this morning. It's not working. haha. i don't even feel like eating when i'm hungry now. -_-
Haha. oh, must really apologise to Gina, Charlene, Lawrence and Clement. As I went jogging around 9 plus 10 this morning and had my breakfast (which consisted of some soft boiled egg which tasted really weird) after that and i didn't wear a watch, I got alittle carried away by "eating". Then, while i was walking to the bus stop, past the crowds, i realised that it was 1141hrs. 0_0 Worship practice is at 1130hrs. Gah. felt really really guilty. However, i took a cab down. So. Yea. I reached there at 1200hrs. But still, if you ever get to read this(probably not), I just want to apologise! SORRY!
uh, just on the random note, Kendra's got a really bad headache. Really really bad RAH :S
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Friday, April 13, 2007
In Love with You - Jacky Cheung & Regine Velasquez
Oh man, haha. just heard this song on 933. Can't remember how old this song is already... -_- hahaha.
To Jing Yi: Eh. Toa Payoh Pool very far meh? hahaha. My house area is only an overhead bridge away from Toa Payoh anyway. And... who's that person whom i resemble? -_-
To Meimei: haha. thanks
To Joanne: Umm.. yes.. can see that too. hahaha
To HuiYu: Yeah. my mom looks quite.. interesting in that Korean costume hahaha.
Kendra is disgustingly fat. aHHH
20:45
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
Some random nice photo.
:D Me and Grace(ieeee)
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007 Kendra feels accomplished. ahaha.
Yep. I... walked home today and baked brownies! haha. How did i get so much time to bake brownies? hahaha. Oh well, we had our annual swimming meet finals (intra-school competition) so we were dismissed "earlier". However, we were dismissed 40 minutes earlier. and it was at Toa Payoh pool. so i decided to walk home.
I had my first attempt of baking brownie with the brownie fudge mix... It was pretty scary. I'd rather mix my own. haha. cause i couldn't exactly estimate the time and i don't even know if the brownie is supposed to taste like it is now. But oh well, i feel great. haha. after baking.
I think i'm getting into the housewifegirl mood. I started to wash dishes yesterday and felt like mopping the floor today. Hmm. shall mop my room floor tomorrow if i've got time. It feels... disgusting. haha. oh well, i guess it's a good way at least to stop you from thinking about the unhappy things.
However, i NEED to go jogging. seriously. I don't care about flu anymore. I'm going to jog tomorrow. (somebody please force me. i'm growing fatter)
16:50
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I have to dedicate this post to somebody... ... ...
MY MOM!
It was her birthday on sunday...
HAPPY *belated BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY *belated BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY *belated BIRTHDAY TO MOMMY~~~~
HAPPY *belated BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
haha. it's your **th birthday already! (getting old ehem)
(actually, really hope that you don't know that this blog exists...)
09:49
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Monday, April 09, 2007
Haven't you realised that it was Easter? Where were you? What were you doing? Weren't you the one saying all those "church-ie" stuff to me the other time? Where were you on an Easter sunday? Did you even know that it was Easter?
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Thursday, April 05, 2007 God IS amazing.
DJW has been like a routine thing to MGS every year during the Holy week before Good Friday and Easter and MGS girls are normally sleeping or just listening for the sake of listening. Whenever there's a protocol, only a few brave hands will shoot up. Sometimes, even none. However, yesterday, God moved those hearts.
We all felt God's presence. We cannot deny. Whispers of prayers were all around. Then, when Pastor Jeremy asked who would like to receive or resubmit themselves to Christ, more than 1/2 the hall stood up. Can you imagine? Never did this happen before. Even Mrs Yap said that there were too many people and could not fit them into the chapel.
Well, I thank God that this has happened. I thank God that the Spirit has finally moved hearts that were frozen, that were unwilling.
Now, let's just see how we would grow in the Lord, as a school.
"lay down your burdens before me... " thank You, Lord.
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Wednesday, April 04, 2007
i feel like a loser. a hypocritic. There were many times when i said how great God is and how i let God move in my life. However, at this point of time, it feel like i haven't done much of surrendering. No matter how much i tried, i couldn't let it go. It haunts me when i'm alone, when I don't have anything occupying my time.
I shocked my classmates this morning by crying before assembly, which i felt really guilty about. I'm so sorry for shocking you. I don't really know why those tears dropped. I think i shocked Si Hui too... "er, i think i should tell you a joke... ..." :) thanks. I know you tried.
I don't really know what i'm doing now. I'm supposed to be living with Hope in my life, yet, i am still allowing myself to sink deep into hopelessness. I live everyday so hope that the day will pass quicker, quicker than how it's passing. I strike out day after day hoping that the holidays will come quicker. I feel like giving up. I can't even control my own emotions, my own thoughts. Those 2 voices that each take different sides are making me crumble.
I really can't take it anymore, Lord. Help.
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Monday, April 02, 2007 Depression has seemed to over take.
Maybe there is something that can cheer me up. For a moment. Maybe there is somebody who can make me smile for awhile. For just that while. Maybe there is some incident that can make me laugh out loud. but only for a few minutes.
she can't take it anymore. she doesn't know the reason. she can't seem to put it in words. those tears don't help in any way. telling you doesn't seem to help either. she knows that it's all in her mind. she should just be happy. "what's so difficult about that?" you just don't understand.
"persevere..."
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The Wonderful Cross When I survey the wondrous cross On which the Prince of Glory died My richest gain I count but loss And pour contempt on all my pride
See from his head, his hands, his feet Sorrow and love flow mingled down Did ever such love and sorrow meet Or thorns compose so rich a crown
O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross Bids me come and die and find that I may truly live O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross All who gather here by grace draw near and bless Your name
Were the whole realm of nature mine That were an offering far too small Love so amazing, so divine Demands my soul, my life, my all
ME
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