Saturday, December 30, 2006
LEE SI HUI! (yes..it's in red! hahaha)My dearest friend from 2o and CLDDS! hahaha.It's really a pleasure to talk to you again after these few months of holidays. Man.. i'm going to miss you when we're separated next year... I'd miss those times when we talked during recess time with random topics. i really envy you for your randomness. hahaha. And i'd miss walking to your house from school and walking back! and I really envy your tolerance by tolerating my stupid moodswings.You've always been there supporting me at the back with your silence in the morning and it's really comforting to know that somebody's there! thank you thank you!:D
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Friday, December 29, 2006
Yep. i'm back from leaders' retreat!Although it was just a one night retreat and we did only makan-ing and bowling, it was a really great experience with the leaders. Leaders in one way or another...We shared about our lives, about what we've learnt during the camp and about what we want to change or what we regretted not doing and how do we see ourselves in the ministry next year. The sharing session was pretty long... ... ... Tiring... ... exhausting... ... but i think it was really great to hear about different people's lives. To see people on the other side.I've always had this bad point about making conclusions about people really quickly. And this retreat changed many of my impressions of the people whom i've been serving and being with. I guess it's just another lesson learnt. ba. haha
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Thursday, December 28, 2006
haha.
I'm a busy woman this december holidays...
Have been busy with the outreach events,children's camp, went for the EXTREME III camp... and now i'm setting off to Pasir Ris chalet for Leader's Planning Retreat.
Well well, i missed having Leaders' Retreat in March this year.. ahaha. sleeping at some unearthly hour of 5.30 am and waking up at 10 plus then going for bowling...
As i recalled about the retreat, i was wondering... ... did we even have our brunch? -_-" i don't remember eating...
anyway... i'm looking forward to this coming retreat...
Star gazing anybody? :D
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
miss 1 (mĭs)
Pronunciation Key v. missed, miss·ing, miss·es v. tr.
To fail to hit, reach, catch, meet, or otherwise make contact with.
To fail to perceive, understand, or experience:
completely missed the point of the film.To fail to accomplish, achieve, or attain (a goal).
To fail to attend or perform:
never missed a day of work.To leave out; omit.
To let go by; let slip:
miss a chance.
To escape or avoid:
narrowly missed crashing into the tree.
To discover the absence or loss of:
I missed my book after getting off the bus.
To feel the lack or loss of:
Do you miss your family?
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I always read through my old archives and realised how much i have changed. Compared to last time, my posts are more emo... more... ... :/
I now choose not to be happy, choose not to testify what God has done in my life, choose to let my emotions take over my mind.
However,this time,i've decided to make the other choice.
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Monday, December 25, 2006
heyo! Merry CHRISTMAS!
Hope you had a wonderful Christmas day!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!happy birthday, shaun tan!
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
camp just broke last night and i'm still super tired.As what many people had said... IT REALLY DOESNT FEEL LIKE A CHRISTMAS EVE.I can't recall how i spent my christmas eve last year. Or how i felt last year.. but i remember that i was much more excited about Christmas last year than this year. Why? I don't know... I'm still trying to search for the answer. It's most probably because of the numerous things that i had to do before christmas that kept me so busy that i couldn't concentrate on... ... being excited for Christmas wahaha. Maybe i'm just feeling tired... ... It's soon to be year 2007... And there's some voice in me wishing that the year wouldn't end so soon. Although i should look forward to my Sec 3 year, there's something holding me back. I recall once again all the first times in my life this year, how hard i worked and served, how tired i felt everytime i over exerted myself not giving myself time to rest... bla bla bla. Oh well, no matter what, time would have to past... ... ... "year 2007 will be great!"can't believe that so much has changed... haha. i hope our friendship lasts :)
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
i thought i'd never forgive somebody who made me lose my faith in everybody. never forgive somebody who betrayed me. never forgive somebody who once hurt me so much. never forgive that somebody who made me feel lousy for the longest time of my life.
but I realised that i've already forgiven that person.
I do care about that somebody... I do still love you.
hey...reply me... are you alright...?
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Monday, December 18, 2006
The language my family speaks isn’t love or anything else heartwarming; we speak uncouth language in the name of A1s. The more number of A1s you score, the better your command of the language is. That was when my self-esteem dipped to its lowest pit. Do you know how depressing it is when people compare you to those who perform much better and you end up feeling like a loser? I knew I didn’t want that to last and so I set my mind on proving myself to all of them. All of those who despised me. Who’d knew I’d top my level two years in a row? That’s when the language was no more a problem for me. Because straight A’s were printed on the slips in my report book.
I read this from her blog and realised that that was really the case.
All THEY ever cared about was results... all THEY only cared about and called me to talk about was my exams, my results, streaming..bla bla. the only topics we could talk about was exams, school, results...
I'm blessed that my parents love me as i am... as who i am. I'm blessed that my parents encourages and supports me no matter what i do.
I'm blessed. Thank You, Lord.
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
it's a great joy being with kids...I was talking to li qi today... and although the things she said may seem to be like just conversations for little kids, it was nice hearing her. Remembering how i was when i was her age. Her smile really made me feel good. :)shout out to crazy grass jelly:hey!!!thanks for those LIMITED EDITION cookies.really, really, REALLY appreciate it. It really did make me feel better somehow after eating 2 cookies (i'd keep the rest for tomorrow or smth.haha). Many many many thanks :D
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
I read Just Listen by Sarah Dessen the other time and one of the character, eh... i can't remember his name. HAHA. Anyway, he said that the silence was too loud. I didn't get what it meant the other time. It's good to have silence sometimes. When it gets too noisy, when you have too many things surrounding you making you feel so stressed up. You need silence. cool yourself down. let your mind rest...but now, i understand what he meant.I thought by staying at home today, i could rest. I told myself to rest. "you're sick!" but... being home alone isn't that good either. Silence is way too loud.MAKE SOME NOISE! lalahfpodifnavpoihbpoidf *cymbals crash*
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
学习一个人生活
或许就不会对“孤单”这两个字有什么感触了吧...
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Woke up at 8 am today in shock, thinking that it was 9am and was late for meeting the Cluedo planning team. but i wasn't late la..
Met Jin Wei at the bus interchange first... then Maylin came...
So, we said to meet at 9am.. and JOANNE ONG WAS LATE!! RAH.
After Joanne reached, we took a bus down to Melina/clement's house.
and to my surprise, Michelle (the girl who looks like Melina but isn't related) was at Melina's house for a stayover. SUPER FUN. and their mothers went to buy ingredients to bake while we were there. hahaha. sounded really fun. i'd want to stay over at somebody's house. hahaha
and i forced Michelle to take her "breakfast". Melina made her kaya+butter sandwich. hahaha. Anyway, after we finished what we were supposed to do at Melina's place, Maylin went for her Volley ball tornament, Joanne went to meet her friends while JinWei and i went back to church to clubhouse.
So i was rummaging clubhouse when i suddenly saw a box labelled "VCDs and tapes". HAHA. And i took out fun ban 1 to watch.
SST LAU WAS SUPER FUNNY!!!
hahaha. no wonder you didn't want us to watch it. XP too bad. hahaha.
Hmm.. so.. i just slacked my whole day away.. in clubhouse..
but okay la.. it's better than going home.
I wanted to go walk around some part of singapore..but.. nah.hahaha. My toes are having blisters already :(
oh! last night, sarah and i went to search on Google.com our full names. She typed "Sarah Chua Kho Xian". And guess what she found HAHA. MY BLOG and some other redundant websites. Then, I tried typing my full name. WAHAHAHHAA. It linked to my blog (ehem. doctor, not some guy's blog can -_-" ) too! haha. that was so cool. I was so high about it last night haha
Hmm. i think i've been eating too much these days..
I should stop... eating junk.. and be healthier!!
haha. go walking around Singapore? :D :D
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I feel proud of myself today.
I walked for 4 hours. From orchard Takashimaya to Esplanade... and back from Esplanade to Orchard MRT station...and i shopped on the way too. :D
Finally, something that made me happy today. I feel accomplished. Kendra rocks! for once!
Oh! and i finally got a new pair of Ripples slippers. :D i felt that it was alittle ex.. but HECK CARE. It accompanied me walk today! rocks!
haha. the thought of knowing my way from Orchard to Esplanade makes me proud of myself.. Although.. i know.. some of you may think that it's chicken feet... it's a new challenge for me! and i did it!
time to walk around the island!
who wants to join me? (prob no one la huh.. it's okay :P)
Oh, just heard from Emma that Xavier Yen Jun Jie is in the Soccer under don't know what age Team Singapore! haha. i feel so proud of my little cousin. hahahaha. I didn't know he was a national soccer player. hehehehe. So cool!
out with myself is good.nobody would comment when i cry...
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I told myself i needed rest. So i stayed at home the whole day yesterday.
My mind didn't get to rest at all... ...
those tears couldn't stop rolling down. those thoughts couldn't stop entering my mind...
Rah. thanks to you lah! RAH.
Time's flying~~~~
And i haven't finished my assignments yet. :/
Alright, i've finally got myself seated in front of the computer for 20mins reading the Hey Math Reading assignment and spent another 20 mins typing out the Meeting Minutes for Kingfishers yesterday. I felt guai. HAHA.
So i've started on my homework... now, i need to complete them before this Friday.
I need to:
1) finish HeyMath Assignment 2
2) finish writing 2 Zhou ji s
3) finish up that chinese book that i haven't touched yet
3 things to do only! (ya right.. only)
Jia you Kendra! HAHA.
i lost it once again.
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Monday, December 11, 2006
I remembered somebody telling me that lightning is just the flash from the camera in the sky.
and that somebody told me to smile :D :D :D whenever lightning strikes and not be afraid...
"How to...?" :S
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
I thought about what i have done for the past few weeks of holidays.
All those fun, all those laughters, all those surprises.
Time seems to be flying really quickly now. Like it can't wait to change year 2006 to 2007..
like it can't wait to be changed to January... like it can't wait to be changed to 11th Dec..
it was only last week when i felt like i was crashing... i couldn't take it. but i still went on. it was only yesterday that the children's camp's ended. Yet somehow,everything seems really far.
There are just so many things that happened.
Many things that have never happened before have happened. Those that i never thought will happen to me have.
And i've been just living each day like running a 10km race.
Running and running. And running.
I'm exhausted already.
holidays have never been so eventful for me before :/
Maybe i should take a rest. I should just be still before the Lord.
I would start running again. I'd run for the Lord.
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Saturday, December 09, 2006
The children have once again touched my heart.Although they didn't raise their hands during the response, could really see them praying... Seeing how innocent they were... ...Anyway, Children's Camp has once again ENDED.
YEP. hahaha.
Although i only helped for a day as a part time leader with Ling Hui yesterday in Bukit Timah Hill, I already made friends with the kids! :D hahahahahahaha
I'd miss my "new friend" Jia Wen (ehem. not Edwin Ong -_-).
Hahaha. she's super sweet! She offered me things! hahaha. And she's really cool.hahahhaha. She may seem mischievous but she's really ting1 hua4...
Oh, and Bao Quan. hahahaha. he bought a bracelet for me with his "money".
hahaha..
Children Camp has ended... 3 more weeks to school reopen :S
I haven't started on any assignment yet :/...
i shall start isolating myself in the room with my computer unplugged and start doing some work before i start rushing on the last week :S
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Friday, December 08, 2006
I just hope that you're not here for just one reason...
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Thursday, December 07, 2006
Got this from my cousin's blog-
When someone is in your life for a REASON. . .
It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.Then people come into your life for a SEASON.
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Here I AmAt Your FeetCrying Out To YouDraw Me NearHold Me CloseAs I wait On YouFor you're my greatest loveYou're my Comforter and StrengthYou're the First, You're the LastYou're my Guiding LightI will run, I will soar on Eagle's WingsAs i wait on You Lordmy strength is restoredfixed my eyes on You Jesus as I run this raceHelp me fight, this Fight of FaithI remember one Monday during a school day feeling low and helpless and we sang this song for Chapel.. It reminded me to turn to the Lord when i'm feeling tired, when i'm feeling stressed.
"I will run... I will soar" as long as i fixed my eyes on Jesus.
I looked for a really long time for the lyrics of the song. haha. and what a coincidence! We're playing it during children's camp this year.. :D
Hmm... maybe it's not a coincidence... ...
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006
I had a weird dream again last night...
I dreamt that i killed some insect and it turned out to be some spider...
then i dreamt that i got squashed by some BODY :S:S:S (i think it was a dead one)
RAHH... what's with me having weird dreams :S:S:S
I just realised that today's Tuesday..
HAHA.
I guess too many things have happened in just a few days time that i'm starting to lose track of time... Tuesday... 5th December.
20 days to Christmas! :D
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Monday, December 04, 2006
i finally had a goodnight sleep last night!
but i had a really weird dream.
I dreamt that i somehow got a PSP and i was using it at macdonalds.
And i was like some dumbo learning to play some game that i can't recall what isit already.
super weird... :S
Not like i want a PSP... (For what? so bulky!)
Went out with Joyce today and i spent super lot of money!
We went to Soupy Spoon at Raffles City Shopping Centre today! haha! it's quite an interesting place to have lunch at... but soup is super filling :S:S..
anyway, besides spending money on food, i spent it on pens and pen refills, a new slingbag (yay. finally. my slingbags are since primary school can..!!) eh.. and a notebook. haha. Oh. i spent it on dinner and on Lemon honey too..
:S
I still have one more thing on my waiting list to get.
NEW SLIPPERS THAT DO NOT SLIP.
My mom said that she'd get it with me tomorrow... Hmm..
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Saturday, December 02, 2006
I want to be somewhere where it's cold and chilly outside,
having a fireplace in my living room somewhere,
having to sit beside the fireplace drinking hot cocoa...
seeing snow falling outside.
haha. how cosy...
Maybe i can blast my airconditioner on Christmas Eve and make some ehem..
EXPIRED CADBURY 3-in-1 Hot Chocolate...
(and probably end up in the hospital the next day due to food poisoning. haha)
and imagine snow falling outside my window and wearing warm sweater... ...
HAHAHA.
i remembered that night... I lost it once again...
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Friday, December 01, 2006
It's those looks.
those really annoying looks. annoying smiles (which i once called "funny")
those annoying whispers.
sucks man.
stop all your weird thoughts.
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