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Sunday, April 30, 2006 10 days ago, i posted a happy cat picture and said "stay happy people!" I can't believe that 10 days later, i'm here feeling... depressed? Isit the right word? Alright, i'm not depressed... but i'm just.. i don't know.. ARGH!
had captain's ball YESTERDAY. Was... ok lar... shouted my lungs out... ya, so currently, i don't have any lungs to help in the exchange of gases. hahaha! ya, but i think i shouted too much, and shouted the wrong way.hahaha.. i should use my dan1 tian2!hahahhaha.. alright, that's super.. umm.. i don't know. lalala..
I miss you! When would we ever talk again???
Friday, April 28, 2006
"take lar, take lah! take all my maths worksheet, English worksheet! Just take all and copy lah!!" "Kendra, did anything happen at home? why are you like that? One day happy, then one day moody? did anything happen?" "No... I don't know lah!" " Are you sure?" " I don't know i don't know!!"
"this is my first time being so pissed with a teacher manx! GRRrr!"
"my watch stopped! AHH!!" "this kind of watch, i don't think they would repair" "then how?" "buy another one la" " HUH?? $15 leh!! GRRrrr!! i'm going to ask my friend to pay! GRRr!"
Thursday, April 27, 2006 Kimberly!! sorry for shouting at you for no right reasons! Sorry, sorry sorry!!
I've just lost my temper at an innocent soul today again. And i'm actually quite surprised that i actually lost my temper to her..hahaha... out of the blue! when it's actually my fault for not handing in stuff to her... arghh...
Stayed back today with Joyce to study science. After doing about one and a half chapter of Chem and bio, i gave up. I cldn't concentrate and i actually fell asleep! hahaha... pathetic. Now, i realise that i can only study alone and not with anybody around me... HAix.. seems like i'm quite a loner when it comes to studying.hahaha. i'm so sick of science now... I'd rather read about History than science.. :S Talking about History reminds me of yesterday when i went to church to study with SCLH! HAHA. Gosh, SCLH is super funny lah! WAD DE! "why don't they just ride the horse(from England to Singapore)?" WAHHHHH!!! hahahaha... only a joker like her would think of such things.hahaha.. :P
it's finally Friday tomorrow! YES! hahahaha... I really cannot wait till the long weekend! :D
have a great Friday!! :D
Tuesday, April 25, 2006 my emotions have been swinging up and down. and it's making me sick! i can be at the high part of the swing for just and hour and the next hour, i'm at the low part. SUCKS! what is wrong with Kendra??!!
I'm always feeling so insecured. and so not confident in everything that i do... And it actually irritates me!!haha.. (who would be irritated with themselves???)
ok.. had P.E. today. And i went super high.. laughing and shouting and.. i don't knw.. then, i became super moody and short tempered... And was pissed by the sec ones... Especially the netballers whom we played benchball with... i hate the benchball game, honestly. I'd rather play captain's ball. Anyway, played Jacob's ladder after benchball.. i hate Jacob's ladder too! ok.. i don't hate it.. i just don't like running over ppl's legs and having to say sorries cause i'm too clumsy and fat and can't help but step on their legs in the process of running... GAhh. haha. and i'm glad that i didn't have to play with those Sec ones! HAHA. I now understand why my sister's suffering.. haha.. having ppl of her level like that...... *shakes head and sighs*
Had chinese test today. GAH. Horrible. Going to be my the first chinese test i'm failing... Oh, and had E-voting today for the prefects... We are only allowed to vote for the Sec twos! I thought we were allowed to vote for all three levels. haix. I wanted to vote for a sec one whom i just acquaintened with last week...
Ok lah.. shan't bore you with my boring sch life... gd bye
Monday, April 24, 2006
Hmm... it's MONDAY AGAIN! school was... i don't knw.. hahahaha.. i've been a great partner today! Packing all Molina's worksheets into her file.. After packing, i just realised how dirty her worksheets are!! My fingers were filled with dust and my nose itched while i was packing..hahaha.. And i just realised how much paper she wastes!! HAHA.
Just got to see the results of the interview. Every nominee from 2oohlala passed.. oh my.hahaha... i wonder how i passed. and now, i'm having mixed feelings... HMM.. should i be happy or not?
it's tuesday tomorrow! the slackiest and most boring day of the week. YES! HAH!
Alright, shall go practise piano now..hahahahaha... Have a great week! :D
Saturday, April 22, 2006 I realised today that i'm a boring person. Especially as a friend. I'm normally lack of topics to talk about and always ask about studies and some general stuff which are.. well... BORING! Really, i'm not interesting at all. hahaha. And i always run out of topics to talk about..hahahaha... maybe that's why i don't really have close friends..hahahahahahahha Plus, i'm anti-social. I like to be alone with a few ppl..the best is with Kendra Ang only. HAHAHAH. And i'm really dumb at times. Not thinking... And i'm really... i don't know. I'm just self-doubting.hahahhaha..
"Because God made you like that!" "and you have to accept it!=D"
I'd always be here for you, jie mei!:D
Thursday, April 20, 2006 Stop telling me to be fiercer. I'm already trying my best. Stop telling me to be more exaggerating. I'm already trying my best. Stop telling me to act more like a guy. I'm not suit for the role. Stop telling me that i can do it. CAUSE I KNOW I CAN'T AND I'M NOT DOING IT!
Thursday sucked. It's the only day that i'm free yet i'm worried about all stupid stuff. This whole week sucks actually. I don't understand a single thing in Maths, just did a stupid crappy compo during chinese today(which i think i'd fail), screwed up the interview, incomplete work is piling up... GRR... Competition's this saturday. sucks. tomorrow's pft. sucks even more. projects not done. sucks the most.
People are always telling me what to do... and sometimes, i really feel like punching their faces. CAN YOU PLEASE JUST SHUT UP?! YOU'RE NOT THE ONE NOT PERFORMING WELL! ok.. i know they are just trying to help. But it's really annoying when i'm hearing the same words again and again from the same people... i'm even hearing them from Kendra Ang myself. I know i have to be this this this.. that that that that. I hear it everyday ok?! I know i'm being stupid again. Complaining about stupid little stuff... but isn't that what a blog is for? For teenagers to complain and moan and groan and whine. . . Ok, maybe that wasn't the main purpose. but who cares!!! ARGH!!
I hate it when i ask myself questions... ARGH! "Why are you so stressed out just because of little things like these?" " What is wrong with you? People out there are much more unlucky than you and they're not complaining! Why are you complaining?" " You agreed in it anyway! so why are you complaining?" " stop being so childish, Kendra." " You're not the only one feeling stressed ok? and you're not the one with all the pressure on you. so STOP Complaining!"
I need some sleep. (and you're going to tell me : go and sleep then!) sure! i shall go to sleep.. if you can help me finish my homework for me. oh great. i'm talking to myself on my blog. i must be crazy.. :S
Tuesday, April 18, 2006 AHH! *Table shook* i'm not exaggerating this time! The table really shook! cause i'm using the computer facing the window! gosh, the lightning's super scary... ...(i bet i must've looked stupid with earphones yet covering my ears with my hands..hahaha) I'm back in the **S Computer Lab 2.0... ARGH. there went the thunder again... :S :S :S
OH! ok, let's umm.. not focus on the storm outside.......... :S Haha... GUESS WHAT? (like you'd answer me..hahahahah)
I passed 2.4 test! With flying colours! :D i ran 14.54!! YAY! super happy! WOOHOO!! hahaha... i've never, in my ENTIRE life run less than 16 mins.ahaha.. but while i was running, my mind went blank and i thought i already ran 7 rounds at 10 mins.. i was like "wow, i can be as fast as Charissa" ahha.. then, i looked at Amanda and asked her how more rounds and she went "3" I almost fainted on the spot... hahaha... but i think i did well! And God Rocks! HAHA! without Him supporting me,i don't even think i'd be able to make it.haha. My time last year was like.. 17 mins lah! so.. i improved! YAY! FATHER, YOU ROCK! :D
oh my goodness, there went the thunder! it sounded like it just killed a few girls... :S hahaha... to those who haven't run up to your standard, cheer up! :D 2oohlalaians did well! :D
Monday, April 17, 2006
*BOMB!!!* *glass shatters* *di4 ban3 zhen4 dong4* ok.. i'm just exaggerating about the thunder.hahaha. ARGH. it was super scary!! The computer lab actually moved!! i think. I felt it move at least. haha. I feel quite bad actually. Have been complaining for the whole day. HAHA. but it's a really good feeling after blabbering.haha...
Haha. My dad's back from Malaysia! YAY! haha. he's gone for only 2 days and we were already missing him... haha..i can't imagine how much we'd be missing him if he's gone overseas for more than a month! HAHA.
Hmm, there's nothing much to blog anymore. . . . . .
Sunday, April 16, 2006 Wasn't feeling really good today. Today seemed to be very, boring... minghui, jolene and i, for the first time, didn't know where to go for lunch. Everywhere seemed... dull. Today's mood was like a Public Holiday mood. Even the carpark seemed so empty, which was... so weird! haha. and i missed my dad. somehow. hahaa.. i liked knowing that his car was at the church carpark and he was waiting for me. It just reminds me that i'm loved and cared about. haha.
i really don't want to lah. ARGH!! Why am i facing stupid problems like these. RAHH.
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Had cldds practice today. Wasn't really good, but oh well, hahaha.. At least we've ALMOST finished our drama. I'm so sick and tired of dragging the show. we'd never end lah! GRR! And i really feel super useless, i can't act for goodness sick!! I know i'm not fit for the role and i know that i'm not good at acting and.. AIYA. whatever.
PFT's on TUESDAY. GREAT. ARGH! Competition's on saturday. WAHH! Mid-year's are like... 3 weeks away. GAHH!
i'm bored... HAHA.. knock knock jokes, here i come!!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Went crazy about Knock knock jokes with Joyce, Sarah and Si hui today. we were spending our time in Popular bookstore reading Knock knock jokes. And Si hui is super creative and LAME LAME LAME!!! Especially the moon one!! WAHH.. i wanted to throw my bag at her! hahaha... took a few pics today.. and i just noticed how fat my face is. GAHH. DIET!!
I'm going crazy writing the profile thing. I don't know what to write about myself!! And i have to submit it tomorrow. How great. WHO IS KENDRA ANG? WHAT QUALITIES DO I HAVE?
lala. I can't stand it anymore! I shall go sit on it!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006 I miss lilianlilylilylilylylylylylylylychee!
PFT. Those three letters give me creeps!!!! I have been struggling to pass PFT since P4 and up till now, i'm still struggling! And it's NEXT WEEK!! ARGH! and i'm still slacking!!! WHAT DE! HOW HOW HOW??!! ARGH. I'm going to disappoint my classmates again. Plus Mrs Chan. Plus myself. Gosh, i'm really starting to hate myself now.. GAHH!! I'm a stupid, lazy, fat pig!!! And i'm still sitting in front of this computer slacking and not doing anything about it! GAH!
Anyway, tomorrow's MGS Swimming Finals! WOHOO! GO BLACKMOREANS!!! I can't wait manx.. hahaha... going to lunch with S.a.l.a.d., Ssssss hui and Joyce! HAHA. Can't wait! I miss lunching with them! (except ssss hui lar.. eat with her everyday.hahaha)
Alright, i'm sounding like a little kid. haha.
i'm growing fat and unfit. how great. RAHHHH!!!!
Monday, April 10, 2006 Just came back from CLDDS. Sucks. Waited for the bus for almost 20 mins.. cldn't board the train because it was so packed... Waited for the bus... was super duper agitated... And i started asking why i was in a stupid cca that ends so late and why didn't i want to call my father to fetch us and why is that stupid driver taking so long to drive his bus here and why weren't i walking home and still waiting for the bus... ... blah blah blah. haha. But i thank God. At least i still got home, i still got to eat, i still have time to come online to blog, i still have time to practise piano, i still have time to chat, i still have a family that cares... etc. haha.
And that led me to another thought! HAHA. Sometimes, we are always so tired and frustrated with life that we always forget to give thanks. There are so much that we can give thanks for, even more than what we can complain about. So why are we complaining so much?
Thursday, April 06, 2006 Just a few minutes ago, my pen suddenly dropped from my table and i couldn't find it. I then started to crouch down and sort of crawled under my computer desk to search for my pen. I was searching and searching for that pen like it was my life. As my computer table is at a corner, the back of the desk is really dark and dusty and..:S. Therefore, i took a torch to shine at the dark areas to enable myself to see... It was tough looking for the pen. Instead of finding a pen, i actually found 2 pens that i've lost sometime ago (a year?) and an eraser that has never been used. Then, finally, after 20 mins of search for my beloved expensive (compared to my $0.50 pen) pen, i found it! It was like i was searching for some precious jewels or something. Haha. I must have been hilarious. Anyway, after i've found my beloved expensive pen, i suddenly had this thought in my mind. .. Something like, why am i so concerned about finding this little pen(which is super common)?
Sometimes, we are always so concerned about small Earthly things that we forget about the Heavenly things. We are only concerned about our exam results, if we have enough money to buy the expensive Branded stuff and even go the extra mile to go get those things. We often forget that we should seek God more than seeking those branded goods or idols or whatever that would only exist on Earth . . . Just like me trying to find that pen. Isn't it stupid to search for so long just for a worthless pen?
Monday, April 03, 2006 Hide me now under Your wings cover me within Your Mighty Hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with You above the storms Father You are King over the flood i will be still know You are God
Find rest my soul in Christ alone know His power in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar i will soar with You above the storms Father You are King over the flood i will be still know You are God...
i will be still and know You are God...
*yawn*zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I slept EARLY this morning and woke up EARLY! Ok...i don't even know what i'm talking about. I'm tired.. and there's CLDDS practice at 4. GAHH... And i'd be back home at 7... and i have to practise piano.. and i have to do my homework... GAHHH!! haha... You must be wondering why i'm in front of the computer typing a post for my blog instead of finishing my homework. haha. Cause i'm doing my homework using the comp! HEHE.
I feel sick today. Felt like vomitting whatever i'd eaten today... Haha..something's wrong with my digestive system. Maybe i should go to the doctor tomorrow and go for a body check up.(MC! HAHAHA) :P ok..i'm crapping.
I hate linear graphs. i don't want to know about y=mx+c..neither i want to know about simultaneous equations!
Zhi yang won for Campus Superstar! haha! i'm glad... at least it's not that Renfred guy.. haha...his singing sucks, chinese sucks,attitude sucks, rapping sucks too! HAHA!
I don't want to go for CLDDS... i want to go home and sleep...
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*yawnz* shan't torture you with my crappiness anymore..haha
Saturday, April 01, 2006 YOHO! haha! i've changed my blogskin again! (yes, not "punk"-y anymore..hahahaha) i love the rain effects! CoOl yeah? ;) Hmm.. Actually, this blogskin doesn't really suit me. I mean, my world's not rainy! haha. But i really like this skin! :D Simple and nice. :D
I ran alot today! I went jogging in the morning, ran from home to MRT station, and i played captain's ball :D. Yay.haha..And because of all these runnings, I'm super HIGH now! HAHAHA! And guess what! my dad's HIGH too! WAHAHHA! It's my first time seeing my dad being really happy for like... a month? yah. Thank God for that :D