Saturday, January 27, 2007
i'm sorry. please pardon this post. i need to rant quite abit before volcano kendra erupts.
you stupid blah! there's so much to life! why are you making your life so miserable? do you know that you're making the one you "love" miserable too? can't you see that she's so different from last time? stop zi4 bei1-ing for goodness sick when you don't even want to change. goodness. GROW UP
and you! traitor. i can't believe that you're the way you are now. i thought you were different. thanks for adding COLOURS to my life
and YOU. YES YOU.
i don't really know what to say to you. but sometimes, it's really so intimidating to talk to you. yeah. talking to you changed me. it gave me alittle more courage to speak. but... it's still so hard. i always feel so stupid when i talk to you. GAH.
and to BLAH yes. i've changed. everybody's changed. nobody's the same.
i can't remain as high as i am last time. I can't remain as that kendra 2 years ago. PEOPLE DO CHANGE. stop expecting so much from me. i hate putting on that mask that i've to put each and every day i see you.
"are you okay?"
"i'm just being concerned"
yes. i know that i'm blessed to have people being concerned with me but sometimes... "are you okay?" wouldn't make me speak out my own mind. so STOP BUGGING ME.
and to YOU YOU YOU.
thanks for changing my life. those hurting words on your blog is enough. that mask that you put on to make me feel better doesn't help at all. you've made me lose my trust in everybody. you said that it sucks that the closest people around you betray you.
think about it again. you've betrayed somebody who once labelled you as a "close" somebody. go on. go and hurt yourself somemore. GO! BYE!yes. and for you who's reading.
don't ask me who i'm aiming. don't ask me what happened. don't ask me anything
i'm fine after ranting already.
Good night world.
21:59
*kendra :D
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